In physical terms, it can cause you to quake
It can hinder your progress, or allow you to grow
In emotional terms, though, its true colors show
On the physical side we all can agree
It warns us of danger and to all it is free
Pain is a nuisance, but serves us the same
It holds nothing back from the sickly or lame
Physical pain we may well understand
but emotional pain is like drawing in sand
Swept clean with time by the reliable tide
We give anew our heart when in others we confide
Loving another, we're always hoping to find
the oft-spoken of joy and longed-for return in kind
The kind that will last will last when everything fails
But how many times must we start anew down these trails?
I believe in a God with unlimited power to heal
but during that process, please just don't let me feel
I have given my heart holding none of it back
but the one that I love is on a different track
I love her too much to ever force a decision
but in the meantime, my heart seems in a prison
Unable to leave and abandon the memories
It seems I am living repeating histories
This road is familiar no matter my disdain
For I know it is riddled with potholes and pain
But in the depths of my heart, I wait to hear her say
"I'm ready, best friend, to marry you today."
I have no control over any but me
but please, Father, just help me see
If start again I must, then that I will do
for my ultimate goal is to be like You.
I trust in the end it will be for my good
but my fire, right now, is starving for wood
I'll trust in Thy wisdom, that it will be for my gain
but right now all I feel is this powerless, powerful pain.
